When i was offered as an officer, i'm just optimist and leave Serdang with Doa' that my journey will be smooth to reduce the burden of my family and other siblings in their studies......
When i registered on the first day, the Top Personnel at that moment is not happy because they are expected to receive male officer. I'm not really sure why, but since the HQ already send me there...they have to accept me. I was instructed to handle out-reach program while at the same time the management people make some arrangement to transfer me out (without my knowledge of coz). When the clerk revealed the news to me, i'm just quite and refuse to make any conclusion becoz i don't think in this era people still practice gender discrimination or preference...especially in my own country...(a very idealistic view from a fresh graduate :-D)
I was called in the meeting room.....with Mr. Chairman and surrounded by the other Heads....doing second interview after SPA did....I'm still optimist and be calm....I was asked with so many questions but the last statement is the most interesting one... ;-)
Mr. Chairman: "You are still very new....u have been chosen by SPA without our representative during the selection... look's like all the Head seems to like u.....but that doesn't mean i like u.."
Me: "It's ok Sir....i understand, we cannot force other people to like us..."
He look quite shocked with my answer.....maybe he didn't aspect me to answer him.....i'm cool, ask permission to go out and leave the room....still with respect to the people that have the intention to investigate & judge me for nothing....just becoz i'm a young lady...not male as they preferred to have.... :-)
Few months after testing me with different kind of jobs and challenges, given projects and task with very minimal guidance......finally they realize that i'm tough and qualified enough to be ignored. When i received the letter to be transferred to other Department, the bosses start to feel that i'm suppose to be in their Division and decided to make me remain......what an 'interesting' experience i had yaa!....hihih....i'm about to laugh out loud!! LOL! But again, they make a joke by arranging the cancellation to transferred me out quietly... ;-D !! Really LOL!!!
Being young and bold....with my aim to help my family.....i face the challenges and turning back is not an option....i know that i have to be strong...remain optimist and x want to waste my time by blaming my faith or get mad of people's ignorant....i choose to forgive them and move on...
Few years later, the Big Boss keep on changing and the recruitment or hiring process doesn't always involve the top management as they claim.... professionally done by JPA or SPA...nobody make noise and the candidates that passed the interview never been tested as i had....i'm just wonder why during my time it is like a BIG issues when there is nobody represent the top management during selection process. I'm also not sure who actually influence the top management to have a preference on hiring male officer rather than woman officer......the politics in the office seems to be more interesting to watch ;-)
When lately there is some issues arise by the Auditor and certain people start to find other people's faults....i'm just smiling.....i'm aware....i know it is definitely unethical to simply give show cause letter to anybody that done nothing wrong......it is even worse to deliver the wrong statement/ information to the Higher Authority....lead to conflict and wrong judgement by others....
I'm certain with myself, my colleagues and operative personnel under my supervision...i know they have done their best.....even trying very hard to maintain everything as the number of visitors is overwhelm.....certain mechanisms have been queried.....but as a technical officer...is not my territory and it is far beyond my control.....the root cause of the problems must be identified and resolve quickly....
I believe that everyday is a learning journey for me......i'm optimist that the truth will be revealed as "Allah Maha Adil"...watching every single move we did...record every single words we said.....and He have warned:
"He raised up the heavens and set the Scale of Justice (so firmly) that you cannot play it false" (Surah 55:7-8)
Few years later, the Big Boss keep on changing and the recruitment or hiring process doesn't always involve the top management as they claim.... professionally done by JPA or SPA...nobody make noise and the candidates that passed the interview never been tested as i had....i'm just wonder why during my time it is like a BIG issues when there is nobody represent the top management during selection process. I'm also not sure who actually influence the top management to have a preference on hiring male officer rather than woman officer......the politics in the office seems to be more interesting to watch ;-)
When lately there is some issues arise by the Auditor and certain people start to find other people's faults....i'm just smiling.....i'm aware....i know it is definitely unethical to simply give show cause letter to anybody that done nothing wrong......it is even worse to deliver the wrong statement/ information to the Higher Authority....lead to conflict and wrong judgement by others....
I'm certain with myself, my colleagues and operative personnel under my supervision...i know they have done their best.....even trying very hard to maintain everything as the number of visitors is overwhelm.....certain mechanisms have been queried.....but as a technical officer...is not my territory and it is far beyond my control.....the root cause of the problems must be identified and resolve quickly....
I believe that everyday is a learning journey for me......i'm optimist that the truth will be revealed as "Allah Maha Adil"...watching every single move we did...record every single words we said.....and He have warned:
"He raised up the heavens and set the Scale of Justice (so firmly) that you cannot play it false" (Surah 55:7-8)
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