Wednesday, October 24, 2012

Executive Talks with Tun Mahathir...


Tak tahu nk cakap apa........ucapannya sangat mendalam......amanatnya memberi kesan di jiwa.....soalan2 yang diajukan kepadanya dijawab dan dikupas dengan sangat tepat. Rasa terlalu rindu pada kepimpinan beliau.....semangat patriotiknya terpancar pada raut wajahnya yang terlalu sayangkan negara dan bangsanya.....yang mahukan kekayaan negara ini dirasai oleh semua lapisan masyarakat.....tak kira di mana sahaja....bukan untuk sesuatu kaum atau seseorang individu sahaja...

Terlalu sukar nk diluahkan dengan kata-kata.....nasihatnya kepada para pemimpin negara dan ketua-ketua Jabatan, KP, Pengarah & semua pegawai kump P&P kerajaan dari seluruh negara......sangat menusuk kalbu dan memberi kesan.....kecuali mereka yang buat2 pekak dan buta hati......semua mata tertumpu pada ucapan dan jawapannya yang tidak perlukan sebarang teks ucapan atau rangka jawapan.....

Benarlah kata Tun.....kuasa yang diberi kepada Ketua atau Pemimpin bukanlah untuk mereka membuat sesuatu bagi kepentingan diri sendiri atau menyalahgunakan kuasa itu......kuasa yang diberikan itu adalah satu kepercayaan yang membolehkan ketua membuat sesuatu yang mendatangkan manfaat dan kebaikan kepada seluruh rakyat atau orang yang  dipimpinnya......

Bergetar jiwa mendengar ucapannya.....semacam ada amaran dan kesayuan.....tentang harapan dan harga sebuah perjuangan....bila di tanya apakah rahsia kejayaan di bawah kepimpinannya, jawapan beliau mudah sahaja....TIADA RAHSIA......hanya dengan bekerja bersungguh-sungguh.....perkara ini bukan sahaja applied utk negara...tetapi juga untuk diri sendiri dan keluarga....mana mungkin kita boleh berjaya dengan hanya berangan2x......duduk berehat dan enjoy sepanjang masa.....hanya tahu bersuka ria dan malas berusaha.....tidak mahu lansung bekerja dan tidak mahu lansung bersusah sedikit...hanya mahu yang senang-senang sahaja.....mana mungkin kita boleh berjaya?? Melainkan kita hanya jadi manusia yang meminta-minta....terlalu banyak lagi nasihat dan pandangannya.......mmg ucapannya terlalu berharga & 'significant' pada orang yang tahu menilai maksudnya.....

Dalam usia melebihi 80 tahun.....beliau masih terus membaca buku ilmiah setiap malam.....Tun....I don't care what other people said about you....u are my idol.....pejuang bangsa yang sejati....Pemimpin Negara yang paling dihormati...

Tqvm Mak....jasamu membuatkan aku boleh berada di sini.....bersama-sama semua yg lain....mendengar amanat Tun yang tercinta....buat bekalan sepanjang perjalanan ini.....yang masih jauh untuk di tempuh....

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Tuesday, October 23, 2012

The learning journey....



When i was offered as an officer, i'm just optimist and leave Serdang with Doa' that my journey will be smooth to reduce the burden of my family and other siblings in their studies......

When i registered on the first day, the Top Personnel at that moment is not happy because they are expected to receive male officer. I'm not really sure why, but since the HQ already send me there...they have to accept me. I was instructed to handle out-reach program while at the same time the management people make some arrangement to transfer me out (without my knowledge of coz). When the clerk revealed the news to me, i'm just quite and refuse to make any conclusion becoz i don't think in this era people still practice gender discrimination or preference...especially in my own country...(a very idealistic view from a fresh graduate :-D)

 I was called in the meeting room.....with Mr. Chairman and surrounded by the other Heads....doing second interview after SPA did....I'm still optimist and be calm....I was asked with so many questions but the last statement is the most interesting one... ;-)  

Mr. Chairman: "You are still very new....u have been chosen by SPA without our representative during the selection... look's like all the Head seems to like u.....but that doesn't mean i like u.."

Me: "It's ok Sir....i understand, we cannot force other people to like us..."

He look quite shocked with my answer.....maybe he didn't aspect me to answer him.....i'm cool, ask permission to go out and leave the room....still with  respect to the people that have the intention to investigate & judge me for nothing....just becoz i'm a young lady...not male as they preferred to have.... :-)

Few months after testing me with different kind of jobs and challenges, given projects and task with very minimal guidance......finally they realize that i'm tough and qualified enough to be ignored. When i received the letter to be transferred to other Department, the bosses start to feel that i'm suppose to be in their Division and decided to make me remain......what an 'interesting' experience i had yaa!....hihih....i'm about to laugh out loud!! LOL! But again, they make a joke by arranging the cancellation to transferred me out quietly... ;-D !! Really LOL!!! 

Being young and bold....with my aim to help my family.....i face the challenges and turning back is not an option....i know that i have to be strong...remain optimist and x want to waste my time by blaming my faith or get mad of people's ignorant....i choose to forgive them and move on...

Few years later, the Big Boss keep on changing and the recruitment or hiring process doesn't always involve the top management as they claim.... professionally done by JPA or SPA...nobody make noise and the candidates that passed the interview never been tested as i had....i'm just wonder why during my time it is like a BIG issues when there is nobody represent the top management during selection process. I'm also not sure who actually  influence the top management to have a preference on hiring male officer rather than woman officer......the politics in the office seems to be more interesting to watch ;-)

When lately there is some issues arise by the Auditor and certain people start to find other people's faults....i'm just smiling.....i'm aware....i know it is definitely unethical to simply give show cause letter to anybody that done nothing wrong......it is even worse to deliver the wrong statement/ information to the Higher Authority....lead to conflict and wrong judgement by others....

I'm certain with myself, my colleagues and operative personnel under my supervision...i know they have done their best.....even trying very hard to maintain everything as the number of visitors is overwhelm.....certain mechanisms have been queried.....but as a technical officer...is not my territory and it is far beyond my control.....the root cause of the problems must be identified and resolve quickly....

I believe that everyday is a learning journey for me......i'm optimist that the truth will be revealed  as "Allah  Maha Adil"...watching every single move we did...record every single words we said.....and He have warned:

"He raised up the heavens and set the Scale of Justice (so firmly) that you cannot play it false" (Surah 55:7-8)

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

Penawar hati....

Lately mama byk kerja....terpaksa balik lambat sikit.....slalu rasa tak sbr nk jumpa anak2...balik hr ni....tgk anak2 mama tgh mengaji....sejuk rasa hati....semoga menjadi anak yg soleh ~ menjadi penawar dukaku.....penyejuk hati....hartaku di dunia & akhirat.... ;-)

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InsyaAllah....


Glad that now we have a  firm KPP (P).....he seems to know many things & understand the situation better....anyway, everything is too soon to be judge...so far  things looks fine...
No matter what....need to be optimist....'langit tak selamanya mendung' ~ semoga dipermudahkan semuanya.....InsyaAllah.....


Green is a good color for relaxing ~ :-)
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Monday, October 15, 2012

Gegirl next door ~



Pagi2 Lil Diya sampai umah i dah....."Assalamualaikum......untie....Ian ada? Nak g main taman boyeh tak"...Hihihi...alahai....anak dara jiran depan umah ....Mat Salleh kata : "Lil Girl Next Door" ...heh.....kemain cantekk pagi2 dah mandi....pakai dress biru....siap hair band ~ ;-)  Cute laa pulokkkk.....

Kemaruk laa si Lil Ian nak pakai baju encemmm gaks.....hadoyyy....layankan je laa....pastuh dua2 budak kenit g main kat taman dgn baju tantek memasing.......with bibik of coz... :-) Bdk2 dua orang ni mmg rapat.....kalau masing2 balik kg pun....msg2 asyik sebut2 je.....dah teringat leww tuew...

Hihi....i love my neighborhood life ~ semangat kejiranan masih tinggi :-D so far, jiran2 sebelah umah, kiri kanan & depan belakang takde lagi laa yg perangai pelik2.....hv a high tolerance and sincerely protect each other.....Alhamdulillah ~ semoga berkekalan.....aminnnn :-)

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